[Accidental Voice]

[knightofratatosk]

[The first sound that can be heard is a loud thump as the journal hits the floor and pops open to record everything that follows.]

No...

[Emil isn't even aware that his journal is open and picking up all of this.]

No, no no please no please... no... no!!

[His voice escalates in pitch, ending in a strangled, heart-wrenching cross between a scream and a sob.]

Richter!!

Comments

[corrinesbell]

[Well, it's not like she had anything else to do today]

[knightofratatosk]

[There's a good reason he slipped up and accidentally called her "Mom" that one time-- she's one of the closest things to a mother that he's ever had. Just being around her makes him feel a little safer.]

[corrinesbell]

[if you told her that she would flush and stammer and flee the scene. In case you were wondering]

[knightofratatosk]

[No worries, he's not going to do anything besides cry right now.]

[corrinesbell]

Emil... [sigh]

[knightofratatosk]

I... I want him back...

[corrinesbell]

I know. But that won't change any of this.

[knightofratatosk]

[He wipes at his eyes a bit.]

[corrinesbell]

What would he say if he saw you acting like this?

[knightofratatosk]

He'd... he'd tell me to stop crying, and to act like a man, not a dog.

[corrinesbell]

...Well, okay, I don't think I'd put it like that but...the point is he wouldn't like seeing you like this.

[knightofratatosk]

[You might not, but Richter would.]

Y-yeah...

[corrinesbell]

I know it hurts, and it's gonna. But he'll be waiting for you when you get back home.

[knightofratatosk]

Sheena, you... you know what I am, right?

[corrinesbell]

[small sigh]

You're a Summon Spirit.

[knightofratatosk]

[He nods silently.]

[corrinesbell]

What about it? ...You're still yourself. [straight from the mouth of Lloyd Irving]

[knightofratatosk]

I don't know what's going to happen to me next, or what I'm going to have to do.

[Well, that's a lie. He knows he's going to have to fight Richter.]

[corrinesbell]

And you're gonna let that stand in your way?

[knightofratatosk]

I...

[corrinesbell]

Nobody knows the future, even the people here who have friends from a future time. You just can't be sure.

[knightofratatosk]

...

[He's got some idea of what the future entails, however, and he knows that it probably isn't very good for him.]

[corrinesbell]

And if you do know, why not try to change it?

[knightofratatosk]

I'm not sure it can be changed.

[corrinesbell]

It definitely won't change if you just do nothing.

[recalls a conversation almost like this with Kratos not too long ago]

If you don't try, you know things stay the same. If you do try at least there's a chance.