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[The first sound that can be heard is a loud thump as the journal hits the floor and pops open to record everything that follows.]

No...

[Emil isn't even aware that his journal is open and picking up all of this.]

No, no no please no please... no... no!!

[His voice escalates in pitch, ending in a strangled, heart-wrenching cross between a scream and a sob.]

Richter!!

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[Asch has followed the other comments enough to know what's happened (not that it isn't easy to guess) and while he knows he isn't the best person for this, he's been through it before to some extent. And since Guy's kidnapped right now he could use some mutual wound-licking.

He'll give Emil some time, though. No point in overwhelming the kid- hopefully he'll have calmed down some by the time he comments. Asch isn't exactly the best for comforting and the like.]

...Sometimes they come back. Don't give up.

... Marta hasn't come back.

[Yeah, he still blames himself for not being able to protect her, even though logically he knows there's nothing he could have done. That doesn't make it hurt any less.]

Sometimes they take a while- and sometimes they never come back. Until we get out of here, that's the life we live. Stop screaming like a child and put your energy to better use.

[It's cold, but he doesn't like to coddle people.]

[But he still is very much a child in many ways-- a scared child who just had the only real happiness he'd ever had ripped away from him and replaced with the knowledge that he's completely powerless here.]

But I--!

[Unfortunately Asch doesn't know about that. But he does not approve of wailing away like a child- he didn't let Luke get away with it, so Emil's getting the same 'peptalk'.]

Won't he be back on your world when you return? Stop acting like you've got nothing left! You're not the only one who's ever lost someone!

Y-yes, but...

[... but I'm going to have to fight him and I don't know what's going to happen after that, just that it probably isn't good. He's not going to say that, though, since he doesn't think Asch will listen.]

[Not knowing the circumstances of Emil's life makes this harder, and Asch is starting to settle down, realizing he's bitching at Emil too much. One step at a time, one step at a time.]

...But nothing. You're allowed to be sad. Anyone else would be.

Just... don't let it overwhelm you. You're not alone without him.

[Well, the circumstances of his life aren't really something he talks about with anyone. He's really bad about actually TALKING to people about things... kind of like Asch in that respect.]

Not... alone...

[Now he's starting to realize that the Malnosso could take any of his other friends at any time and leave him all alone again.]

[Bleh. Forward one step, back three.]

...Exactly. Just don't forget that, whatever else you do.

R-right.

[It's not your fault, Asch. What the kid really needs is a therapist who will force him to talk about his problems rather than keeping them all to himself. YOU MIGHT BENEFIT FROM THAT TOO, YOU KNOW.]

[PROBABLY BUT LIKE HELL HE'D EVER GO FOR IT.

There's a pause, because Asch has a feeling that forcing this kind of thing on Emil isn't such a great idea, but someone had to be a bully before he cried himself into a corner and refused to come out. He knows how it feels to lose everything, after all- you need something to keep you from giving up entirely.]

Look, Emil, you- ...you should talk to someone. Someone who's better at listening. You can't just keep this to yourself.

[Talk to someone? He would talk to Richter sometimes when he was really upset...

He's silent for a little while.]

I... I'll be all right. You don't have to worry about me.

[Now he feels bad for making Asch worry about him-- the other has already done so much for him, and he repays him by making him worried and upset? Yeah, way to go, Emil.]

[Don't dwell on Richter too much, or Asch'll yell at you again.]

That's a foolish statement. People are going to worry about you even if you tell them not to.

[But he doesn't want people to worry about him. :(]

I'm sorry...

It's fine. Don't apologize. [It's not like you did anything wrong- he just doesn't want you to give up.]

[Unfortunately the kid has a bad track record of doing just that, even right up to the end of the game. 8| Silly Emil.]

I... right.

[Pause.]

He could still come back.

[Emil, you dummy.]

That's possible, too. Either way, what would he want you to do?

[Yep. He does not always think things through.]

To be a man, not a dog.

...Sound advice. You should follow it. [That means no more whining and crying.]

I'll try.

[That means BRB SMASHING THE BARRIER DOWN. Or trying to, at least.]

That's all I wanted to hear.

[See, Emil, that would be retarded, not manly. Barrier is saving lives remember 8|]

... thank you, Asch.

[This is somewhat LESS retarded than his plan to trick his friends into killing him as a means of atoning for Aster's death.]

...I'm sorry if I'm too harsh.

[Okay yeah, gotta concede there. That is epic stupid.]

[It is indeed epic stupid. As said, Emil really doesn't think things through a lot of the time.]

N-no, you... you're right.

[...Well, yes, he is right, but it's still good to apologize for being a spazz about it.]

Maybe it's something else we can help you with.

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