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Um... can I ask you a couple of questions?

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... I don't think I like this very much. Does anyone know what's going on? I keep saying things that I shouldn't...

(OOC: And we now have ToS 2 spoilers in the comments! Proceed with caution.)

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G-go away!

[But there isn't much conviction behind his words; he sounds very small and scared right now. He's sitting on the bed, curled up into as tight a ball as he can manage, his body shuddering with the occasional sob.]

[oh, yeah. Very Ratatosk-like. And Richter's feeling worse, kthanx.]

... This is why I didn't want you to find out.

That's... t-that's why I can't remember anything before Palmacosta, i-isn't it?

[Swallowing hard, he raises his tear-stained face to regard Richter with pleading eyes.]

Yes.

[stop giving him those eyes, darnit!]

S-so I'm not even human... the people in L-Luin were r-right, I'm a monster...

No. That's not quite correct. The Ratatosk I saw two years ago was a monster. You're nothing like that creature. Your heart is human.

[his fists are clenching. Why must he be saying all these things?]

[His knuckles are white from clutching the blankets in his shaking hands.]

H-how can you say that? Y-you knew all along that I wasn't human! But you said... you said...

Your identity doesn't change a thing. You are what you believe to be. Sitting here and acting like a weakling won't do you any good.

[And he has to choke back a sob at this.]

Y-you were right all along, I am a weakling... I couldn't defeat Diavolo... I-I couldn't even protect Marta... I shouldn't pretend to be something I'm not!

I've seen how your journey ends, Emil. I was there. You protected Marta just fine. You even managed to-

[-kick my ass. Yeah, ouch. Richter quickly looks away, biting his knuckles, to stop himself from saying that]

[But he doesn't seem to have heard that.]

... w-what happens to me in the end when Ratatosk is-- when I'm awakened?

[Now his voice sounds very small.]

The world's Mana balance will slowly be restored, through the means of a ritual. It's complicated. You don't need to know about it.

[translation; do not ask]

O-oh...

[He looks like he wants to ask more, but he gets the feeling that it's not a good idea. Something tells him that things don't end all that well for him and this frightens him a bit.]

And... what about you?

I get to repent for my actions.

Repent?

[He tilts his head curiously, not quite understanding what Richter means by this.]

[fist biting, oh yes, lots of it. There's a muffled sound which sounds an awful lot like "Ginnunga Gap", but Emil doesn't know what that is anyway. Then he finally pulls himself together somewhat.]

It doesn't matter.

But... it does matter. I don't want anything to happen to you.

You wouldn't be saying that if you knew about-

[steeling himself, now. Dodge it, Richter! You can do it.]

About the things I've done to reach my objectives.

I would! I know you're rude sometimes, but underneath it you're a nice person and... and... I really like you, Richter!

[... oops. That was a bit more than he had intended to say...]

How can you just say that? You don't even know me! You don't know what I did! I made pacts with demons! I was ready to kill you, just so I could revive Astel! You can't say you like me when I've done nothing to earn such a thing!

[how's that for "more than he'd intended to say"? Smooth, Richter.]

[He flinches a bit at this tirade, but he's not going to waver.]

But you saved me many times as well! I-if you'd really wanted to kill me, you would have done it when you had the chance, but... you didn't. Diavolo could have killed you and you saved me anyway!

I know you're a good person, Richter! I may not agree with what you're doing, but you were the first person who was kind to me! Doesn't that count?

[frantic headshake. So much 'ignorance' isn't improving Richter's mood, here]

A few moments of kindness don't make up for all that! What matters is that I was ready to end your life when the moment called for it! If you hadn't stopped me, I would've gone through with it! I don't deserve your friendship!

[Okay, words obviously aren't working here, so he's going to have to try something else. Standing up, he launches himself at Richter and grabs the other man in a fierce hug, burying his face in Richter's chest. Maybe this will make him understand.]

Stop it... just... stop it! I... I don't want to lose you, Richter... you're all I have...

[Damn this event for making him so honest. He would never admit to this otherwise...]

[what what what. Hold on, Richter's brain just crashed. He's just standing there, completely frozen. Obviously, this made him understand nothing.]

Emil... You...

[he places his hands on Emil's shoulders. He should try to push the kid away, but he just can't find the strength to.]

[Well, the kid's attached like a koala anyway, so it's going to take a lot of effort to remove him.]

Don't make me leave... please...

[He's genuinely afraid that Richter is going to kick him out now.]

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