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[knightofratatosk]

[Emil can be found outside of House 20 trying in vain to patch a rather sizable hole in one of the walls, the result of a pissed-off Ratatosk (in a thread that hasn't been finished yet, oops) trying to get Vyse and Stahn out of his house. It's obvious that he doesn't know what he's doing and he doesn't have the proper tools to do a real repair; he's just trying to block up the hole as best he can to keep the snow and the wind out.

It doesn't look like it's working that well.]

Comments

[knightofratatosk]

I... [And now he sighs.] I don't know. Actually, I... I don't know how it happened. Um, not exactly, I mean.

[trueknight]

[He pauses for a sec before continuing with the hammering.]

Ratatosk?

[knightofratatosk]

[Slight nod.]

[trueknight]

... I see. [Alrighty, one nail in. Working on the next now.] Can you think of anything that could've caused him to show himself?

[knightofratatosk]

I wanted Stahn and Vyse to go away.

[He's not exactly proud to be admitting it. Still, they DID kind of break and enter...]

[trueknight]

I take it just telling them to leave you alone wasn't working. [He's a little worried about what Emil means by 'go away', but he knows him well enough to know that if Ratatosk seriously hurt or killed Stahn and Vyse, Emil probably wouldn't be fussing over a hole in the wall of all things.]

[knightofratatosk]

N-no, it wasn't. I don't... I don't think I hurt them, but... I don't know.

[trueknight]

I wouldn't worry much about it. If they did get hurt, it'd be hard to miss with all this snow around.

[knightofratatosk]

[... aaaaand cue Emil looking around at the snow near the house. No traces of blood that he can see, which is a good sign.]

Still, he attacked them.

[trueknight]

[Quiet for a moment, then--] That's sort of what we've all come to expect when he comes around, but if it's bothering you, then find some way to make it up to those two.

[knightofratatosk]

... you know that he's the real me... right?

[trueknight]

[Shrugging a little, still focusing away on the hammering and such.] Ratatosk is Ratatosk and Emil is Emil. It doesn't matter who the real one is to me.

[knightofratatosk]

"Emil is Emil"... that's what Richter said too. But... how can I be Emil and Ratatosk at the same time? I can't be two people, t-that's just stupid!

[trueknight]

Then why don't you remember anything when he takes over?

[knightofratatosk]

I don't know, but he knows what's going on when I'm in control.

[trueknight]

Doesn't matter. The point is that you have your memories, and he has his. I doubt he's got the same point of view as you on top of that.

[knightofratatosk]

... I don't have any memories. The memories I have of my childhood, of growing up... they're all fake.

[trueknight]

[... Oh Emil, he didn't mean that in the least.] ... Well, what about the memories you made here and back home? Those are real, unless we've got a mass hallucination going on here and there.

[knightofratatosk]

Will we even remember Luceti when we go home? I don't want to forget any of this-- any of the people I've met here. If I can't see everyone again, I want to at least be able to remember them.

[trueknight]

I can't say it's too likely, but I'm sure there's at least a chance of it.

[knightofratatosk]

[And now he has to look down, swallowing hard.]

I just want to go home...

[trueknight]

... We all do. And we all will.

[knightofratatosk]

[He doesn't quite look like he believes that.]

[trueknight]

[He glances over for a moment and stops with the hammering, offering a small sympathetic smile.]

C'mon, don't look like that. It doesn't seem like it, but we really are making progress towards getting home on our own. We know a lot more about this place and how it works now than we did a year ago, at least.

[knightofratatosk]

Yeah.

... um, are you almost done? My arms are starting to get tired.